hrcdrc asked:
I’m a recent college grad (May 2008) that only has a seasonal job at a theme park. It pays good money, especially in the summer, but since the parks closed for the winter, I’ll be temporarily out of a job for 5 months. My field is in graphic design, ever since the end of August, I’ve been job hunting; I gotten interviews, and turned down something that was only being paid on commission and required a lot of driving. The job market *****. I started my own business about a month ago and luckily I’m signing up my first sponsor this week. However, I cannot put a lot of money into it right now for it to grow it cause I’m out of work. I picked up a side job designing a website for someone. Other than that, I’m a starving artist. I still live at home like a loser. I have loans to pay and a small medical bill due to an anxiety attack I had a few weeks ago. My parents say that they can help me out financially when I need it, but I’d rather not sound high maitnenance or be a mooch. Everyone tells me to calm down, but if I calm down, I might be called a slacker or a bum and won’t get stuff done. I’m a very sharp ambitious person and doing what I can to earn extra money and find a better job. I could take a job as a waitress or any other job, but I’ll be overqualified because of my degree. In order to save money I am literally skipping meals and starving myself. When I tell my friends and family about this, they worry and look at me like I’m insane; but I got no choice here. I cannot predict exactly when I’ll find a better job and when the economy will speed up again. I keep applying myself day in and day out, but I still come up short. If I can look back on the past week, I only had about 600 calories or less a day, so I’m saving extra bucks on the grocery bill, so that my parents won’t have to go out and buy as much food; I don’t want to be a freeloader, so I’m starving to pay off my loans! I’m literally to the point of not being able to think clearly while sending out resumes and applications cause I’m so hungry and feel lightheaded. The other day at work, I felt like I could faint and was all moody and had stomach problems. I’m not sure what else to do here? Between my two bank accounts, I have about $4,500. I feel like I have to kill myself here so that I won’t go broke. I know a job will turn up, but by then, I’ll probably die of starvation. What’s scary is that I feel really good when I starve myself. Things are serious, what else to do?